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After all the efforts pour in, at last I got really bad+suck+the worst result I have ever obtained in my entire life. I have never got such a terrible and worse FAIL!!!!! I hate this word….but the fact is I FAIL!!!!!! :’( As soon as i got the result, i cant help but to rush out from main office to toilet……I mean 9 months struggle to aim for flatA but came out…….ARgghhhh…so frusfrating…Now I can’t even go to any uni to do my med or pharm…better jump from kbu then…no more future career….im uselesss…….

I’m useless.

1 day before reunion dinner:

First of all, let’s talk about what had happen since last Friday. I drove to Taiping. I remember vividly that my dad, bro and I went back to see kung kung because he got some back-sore on his back and is in hospital. We reached there at about 5pm and he still can talk and a bit senile. He asked us to pull him up because he is feeling uncomfortable with the bed but none of us did what he asked as he has some tubes attached out from his body. It’s kind of pity to see him in that condition. He even asked where is my mom and my sister. He wished to see them but sister got school. After about half an hour, we bid goodbye and promised to come again on the 4th of CHinese New Year calendar.

Then we went for the famous fried oyster in Taiping town. My brother and I bought about RM 100 stuff for grandma as she didn’t prepare anything for CNY with grandpa’s condition. Guess what! My bro and I bought 2 cute teddy bears which I admit we are little bit childish but the bears are just so cute. That night, we went back straight to Bukit Beruntung with hope that grandpa will get better and better.

On Reunion Dinner:

Baked 9 ‘nin kou’ and gave 2 to Sam’s family. It was quite delicious. Home made nin kou….of course nice! hehe.. We are suppose to have steamboat that night but due to over-eating in the afternoon, we can’t take steamboat in the evening. hehe. So full. Then went to bed at 11pm as we are going to Malacca for CNY.

1st and 2nd day of CNY:

Usually on this day, I ll expect a lot of angpows will come in but this year isn’t the same anymore. I just feel it’s just another normal day. We pushed off from Bukit Sentosa in the morning and arrived in the afternoon. Checked in hotel and rest. GO out again after rest just for 10 minutes. Visited so many nice places. *tired of thinking and typing too much now. so i ll just cut it short*

4th day of CNY:

The whole family went back to Taiping as grandpa was very sick. He wished to see my mom and my sis but by the time we reached there, it was already night and he’s already been given doses of morphine and sedative drugs. My uncle said that grandpa vomitted 2 cups of blood. It sounds and looked scary. His mouth still got blood. Kung kung looked very pale. When I called his name, his left leg kept moving. We know that he knew that we had arrived to see him but he just couldn’t move because of the sedatives. About 1 hour later, a M.O (medical officer) came and said that she need to do p.d on kung kung. I forgot the full name for p.d. She said that kung kung’s kidney has acute failure and she has to poke a hole at the stomache to clean out the toxin in the body. I felt extreme pity for kung kung. He’s already suffer so long and yet need to suffer.

5th day of CNY:

We stayed in Taiping and visit kung kung from visiting hours: 12.30pm till 2pm and 4.30 till 7pm. Each day Kung kung looked pale and very ill. I can’t bear it and started to cry. We knew this won’t be long for him before he go to another world. Even the specialist said if they pull out the support machine, he ll die within 1 hour. We decided not to pull off the machine from him as this is very cruel towards him and also human’s right. He’s still fighting for every chance to survive. We should give him a chance. Today is the last day our family will be in Taiping. We need to go back to Beruntung to settle so many things. We visited him at 12.30pm and I touched his hand with the hope and pray so that he ll get better but he doesn’t respond in anyway. I can feel that his hands are reaally cold. I cried and cried thinking of the pain that he need to bear with. He looked paler than yesterday. After that, we went back to Beruntung and my dad stay at Taiping to look after grandpa.

At the night, we went for reunion dinner at Restaurant Imbi Palaca in Klang. It was a nice and new restaurant. As everyone was enjoying the dinner, I kept thinking of grandpa. Will he be okay? How is he now? I pray upon NamoAmitabha so that he will be alright. Namo Kuan She Yin Pu Sa

My grandpa, Leong Foh I hope and pray so that you will be getting better.

*Everyone let’s pray so that my grandpa will get better and better.*

1 day before reunion dinner:

First of all, let’s talk about what had happen since last Friday. I drove to Taiping. I remember vividly that my dad, bro and I went back to see kung kung because he got some back-sore on his back and is in hospital. We reached there at about 5pm and he still can talk and a bit senile. He asked us to pull him up because he is feeling uncomfortable with the bed but none of us did what he asked as he has some tubes attached out from his body. It’s kind of pity to see him in that condition. He even asked where is my mom and my sister. He wished to see them but sister got school. After about half an hour, we bid goodbye and promised to come again on the 4th of CHinese New Year calendar.

Then we went for the famous fried oyster in Taiping town. My brother and I bought about RM 100 stuff for grandma as she didn’t prepare anything for CNY with grandpa’s condition. Guess what! My bro and I bought 2 cute teddy bears which I admit we are little bit childish but the bears are just so cute. That night, we went back straight to Bukit Beruntung with hope that grandpa will get better and better.

On Reunion Dinner:

Baked 9 ‘nin kou’ and gave 2 to Sam’s family. It was quite delicious. Home made nin kou….of course nice! hehe.. We are suppose to have steamboat that night but due to over-eating in the afternoon, we can’t take steamboat in the evening. hehe. So full. Then went to bed at 11pm as we are going to Malacca for CNY.

1st and 2nd day of CNY:

Usually on this day, I ll expect a lot of angpows will come in but this year isn’t the same anymore. I just feel it’s just another normal day. We pushed off from Bukit Sentosa in the morning and arrived in the afternoon. Checked in hotel and rest. GO out again after rest just for 10 minutes. Visited so many nice places. *tired of thinking and typing too much now. so i ll just cut it short*

4th day of CNY:

The whole family went back to Taiping as grandpa was very sick. He wished to see my mom and my sis but by the time we reached there, it was already night and he’s already been given doses of morphine and sedative drugs. My uncle said that grandpa vomitted 2 cups of blood. It sounds and looked scary. His mouth still got blood. Kung kung looked very pale. When I called his name, his left leg kept moving. We know that he knew that we had arrived to see him but he just couldn’t move because of the sedatives. About 1 hour later, a M.O (medical officer) came and said that she need to do p.d on kung kung. I forgot the full name for p.d. She said that kung kung’s kidney has acute failure and she has to poke a hole at the stomache to clean out the toxin in the body. I felt extreme pity for kung kung. He’s already suffer so long and yet need to suffer.

5th day of CNY:

We stayed in Taiping and visit kung kung from visiting hours: 12.30pm till 2pm and 4.30 till 7pm. Each day Kung kung looked pale and very ill. I can’t bear it and started to cry. We knew this won’t be long for him before he go to another world. Even the specialist said if they pull out the support machine, he ll die within 1 hour. We decided not to pull off the machine from him as this is very cruel towards him and also human’s right. He’s still fighting for every chance to survive. We should give him a chance. Today is the last day our family will be in Taiping. We need to go back to Beruntung to settle so many things. We visited him at 12.30pm and I touched his hand with the hope and pray so that he ll get better but he doesn’t respond in anyway. I can feel that his hands are reaally cold. I cried and cried thinking of the pain that he need to bear with. He looked paler than yesterday. After that, we went back to Beruntung and my dad stay at Taiping to look after grandpa.

At the night, we went for reunion dinner at Restaurant Imbi Palaca in Klang. It was a nice and new restaurant. As everyone was enjoying the dinner, I kept thinking of grandpa. Will he be okay? How is he now? I pray upon NamoAmitabha so that he will be alright. Namo Kuan She Yin Pu Sa

My grandpa, Leong Foh I hope and pray so that you will be getting better.

*Everyone let’s pray so that my grandpa will get better and better.*

Today chemistry lecture was okay. We learnt lotz of new things such as use of UV and IR in detecting the mass of wat thingy which I don’t really understand…lol…So many of my friends don’t even know what’s it about.lol….now having free time from 11 to 2.30pm..thn hav my first lecture of Mechanic..Hope will be turn out to be extremely easy.lol..my friends asked whether i did choose the right option by taking mechanic 1, stats 1 and stats 2 as my Advanced levels..Normally people choose 2 of this. But i was dilemma should itake mechanic since i don’t really like physic.. and the gud thing is stats 2 only hav 4 chapters..lol…mechanic 1 hav 6 chapters.. well, why not giv it a try. ehh talking about this, now only i remembered to pay my locker’s fees which gonna be RM 60 for 1 big and 1 small locker..lol..i rent 2 lockers. 1 for food and clothing which is at cafeteria, and another for books which is just in front library. sometimes my friends just chunk their things inside my locker too..lol.jadi sarang tikus la nampaknya…okay..gonna pay locker’s fees and ask about IELTS. Adios

Today new day went well. The frist lecture is Chemistry. Ms Jaclyn welcomed us back.lol.After that she began her boring lecture. Next is bio lab. Gosh . Feel so embarrasing during bio lab time. I did the wrong method. It’s an individual experiemtn and we have to do it in 2 hours time. I did Sudan 3, Benedict and Biuret reagent test.

I never did Sudan 3 test before so I assumed just pour in Sudan solution to the sample. But I was wrong. The lecturer was shouting “someone did the wrong Sudan 3 test” and that time, Im the only one doing and holind test tube cointaining Sudan 3…Argh!! So embarassing. The whole class of about 30 people was staring at me. I can feel the sudden heat shoot up to my face. Hope nobody noticed that my face changed colour. lol. I admitted that I did the wrong procedures but she doesnt need to shout that loud to me as if I can’t hear. Well, the good part is at least I remember how to do all the test correctly

And thelast part, Guess what! My friend boiled my solutions which I hardly prepared myself …#$%#$ and the worse part is he boiled the wrong solution. #$%#$% End up I have to re-do after my lecturer said “your solution is so weird” lol..

Okay, need to do my bio lab report and revise Chapter 1 Unit4 Chemistry. Adios.

Day after tomorrow will be the day I return to my college. Yes!! Which means I can meet my college friends back. I miss them so much especially our usual hanging place. hehe. It’s so boring to be trapped inside the house with only computer, ps2, piano and of course job of a maid..hehe. don’t guess wrongly. I mean I’m an outgoing person.

In this 2 weeks holiday, I have been freely free mysef from any study except for light Statistic books. Talking about this, Yee Fong still has my Business Accounting book by Frank Wood. lol. Back to here, quite dissappinted actually when my usual online friends are often not online in this 2 weeks. When I hav college, they are always available and online but when Im in holiday, none of them online 24 hours. *sigh sigh*. Well, ignore that.

When go back to college time, must study really really hard!! Kampateh Chew Wei!! My study left only Unit 6 which means the last unit and after that, I’m done with my A-levels.Yahoo!! But after that, I’m dilemma on which course should I take. I have a few criterias for my future job which is:

1. That particular occupation must be highly professional and recognised globally.

2. High pay with 6 figures and is high in market demand.

3. I love to socialise with people and also treat patients.

4. 60% of my job must be in office and others socialise with people!! lol

5. Must have flexible working time for me.

lol..I guess that I am too demanding..lol..

What course should I take?

I have few university options for Medicine:

1. Volgograd University in Russia which gonna be 7 years and it’s Russian medium. I’m not sure whether I can cope up with Russian cause the preparatory course is only 1 year. 1 year to speak Russian fluently is almost impossible. Plus the clinical terms. Huh? The summer gonna be hot up to 45 degree Celcius and winter as low as negative 40 degree Celcius.

2. Gadjah Madah University which is in Indonesia. It’s something like UM in Malaysia with international students. Only 6 years to finish a degree. Disadvantage: Hot weather and have to speak in Indonesia. Have entrance exam which I don’t think I’m gonna make it with limited seats with so many geniusses around competing for limited places.

3. Brawijaya University in Indonesia. It has cold climate with only 23-26 degree Celcius which is tolerable. No entrance exam and it’s 6 years too.

I was thinking, I really need an outstanding results to go into any university. *sigh sigh*. Anyway I just ask my dad to find a neutral councellor for me. Neutral in the sense that councellor is not a councellor in any colleges or universities. I’m sick of councellors that trying to make me change my course with their ability to rip their victim’s flesh apart then suck their blood.  

Oh yeah. Before I forgot. I need to have TOEFL or IELTS to enter the oversea’s university but my dad seems to be so busy to even find a place for me to study those. Guess I need to find it out myself and then just ask money from them. On Monday, I will ask from KBU whether they have IELTS or TOEFL. Hope they do have. If not, I have to go KL.

Great things would greet me start fron 5th Feb. Firstly, I got the chance to spend RM 2k on my own to buy clothes. Can u imagine that? Only on clothes. lol.It’s actually for my later university’s clothes. My dad asked me to buy all colar shirts. OMG! All Rm 2k to buy colar shirts? haha. I will just see which shirt I will buy. lol. My parents said that I have the tendency to keep the clothes after I rasmikan it once..Dame goes to my brother. lol. Yea. I agree with that. I feel so lazy to think and take out all the shirts from my wardrobe just to see which one I wanna war for tomorow. haha. It would be so much easier like last time secondary school. Everyday wear uniform :p

Franky speaking, I MISS ALL MY SECONDARY SCHOOL’s FRIENDS! I wonder how are they doing right now.

Alright, I’m crapping too much here. I might not blog so much as I will be back to college start on 5th Feb and next holiday would be on Chinese New Year.

Oh CNY!!! So many things to do. Make cookies as usual love letters cookies, corn flakes, chocolates and etc..hehe.make the ‘nin kou’…hehe..need about 10 hours to finish the ‘nin kou’……my parents and I will be making it start at 8 pm till 6am…hehe…It would be so much fun. And they have this pantang-larang saying that in the process of making this ‘nin kou’, we can’t quarrel or do any bad things.haha…And not to forget, the promise I had make with Sam’s mom: help her bake cookies too..hehe..

lol..As usual crap a little before I end this post. With this, I end this post with “Hope all of my SMKBS friends will do well in their life. You are the best guys!”

Today, I’m 19 years old. Huh. Getting older already. I like 18 better. hehe. Today since 0000 hours, received so many smses and messages from my friends..hehe. Let me start off with first 10 people who wishes me.lol. since i’m so damn free now.

1. Ting Suang

2. Adzfar

3. Cheng Hung

4. Wan Ling

5. Han Loong

6. Shaza

7. Pamela

8. Bernard

9. Si Yen

10. Ang

11. Krystine

 and others too..lol…and my family. Thanks Ting Suang for calling me sharp at 0000 hours just to wish me. hehe and Pam too for the birthday wish at your blog. hehe.

This year’s birthday has been rather dull compared to previous years. Haiz…..NVm about it…